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     I am back in Houston for an indefinite amount of time. Another ulcer has opened up after the first one finally closed. I ask God to give me strength; I do not know if I can fight another 11.5-year nightmare. God grant me perseverance.

In Christ,
Monk Proklos
Current Mood:
hopeful hopeful
Current Music:
Little Bird -The Weepies
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     It seems someway, somehow the wound is healing. I do not understand how or why, but God is good. I have given up on pursuing a nursing degree as I will never have the strength. Once I made this personal declaration, necrotic tissue became fresh and the wound began to decrease in size. I have often struggled with the decision between nursing and monasticism. Perhaps once I gave up on nursing, the other option became more revealed. I have learned to be more submissive to Him and to not be so upset when things don't go my way; to be open and flexible and not get my hopes up too easily. Plans are tentatively set for Greece as early as July; possibly later. Whatever God wills.

In Christ,
Jordan
Current Mood:
optimistic optimistic
Current Music:
Heavy -Holly Brook
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Cast your eye upon the future. Make us wiser than we are.

     The Fall '09 semester is over and I finished Biology once and for all with a B. I do not know what I will do next semester at this time. I may take my Math core and some electives, get an AA degree, and move on to the University of Houston next Fall for a BA in Psychology.
     I still have hopes for Greece. I am sad that I have not heard from Father in 5 months, but I am hopeful that somehow something will come about. I feel I am in deep need of a monastic retreat so I have given thought to visiting St. Michael's Monastery in NM or perhaps Holy Cross Hermitage in WV. Or both.

In Christ,
Jordan
Current Music:
Star Of Bethlehem -Home Alone Sndtrk
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     Glory to God for another year.

In Christ,
Jordan
Current Mood:
thankful thankful
Current Music:
Turn Back Time -Aqua
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     Having beheld her Lamb being led to the slaughter, Mary, the Ewe, followed Him in the company of other women, troubled, and crying thus: "Where goest Thou, my Son? And why hastenest Thou to finish this course? Is there, perchance, another wedding in Cana to which Thou hastenest now to change the water for them into wine? Shall I go with Thee or shall I rather tarry? Give me word, O Word, nor pass me in silence, O Thou who didst keep me undefiled; for Thou art still my Son and my God.

In Christ,
Jordan
Current Mood:
calm calm
Current Music:
15th Antiphon -Fr. Apostolos Hill
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     As Grent Lent begins, I want to ask for everyone's forgiveness. Forgive me if I have wronged you in any way. That being said I guess I should focus on some personal updates...
     My credit card debt is gone. I paid it off last month. Now I just have to pay off the money I owe my mother (no sweat) and make sure I do not get back into credit card debt. Obviously, during Lent I won't be spending much money so I will more than likely pay my mother back the majority of what I owe her.
     As for school, I had midterms in my two History classes last week and I think I may have gotten As on both. Thus, I think I have As in both History classes and I think I have an A in Philosophy as the grading has been from participation so far. I am beginning to plan on what is next. I am not entirely sure if I want to take a course in the Summer or not. I have seven classes (after this semester) left toward my associate degree. Theoretically, I could take Biology in the Summer since it is a pre-req for both Anatomy classes and Microbiology. Then take Chemistry, Nutrition, Anatomy 1 and 2, Microbiology, and Psychological Statistics over the Fall 2008 and Spring 2009 semesters. I shall see; one semester at a time.
     My health is still a bit in the grey. I still have the ulcer on my left foot and I strained/sprained/twisted/did something to my right ankle about two weeks ago. I am trying to get a doctor's appointment very soon.
     In my spiritual pursuits, I have found that my desire for the monastic life is increasing; a part of me has considered giving up my degree. I will be going to Greece this coming weekend for eight days; I will see Fr. Chrysostom while I am there and I am hoping we will discuss my vocation and a pilgrimage to Jerusalem to spend Passion Week and Pascha 2009 with him. How I would love that opportunity. Indirect, but still important to my spiritual life is my aunt. After three decades of disliking the Orthodox Church, she has decided to convert to it. And she asked me to be her male sponsor. I am praying for guidance on this. Though I am a sponsor to my niece and a cousin, they are both two years old. Being only twenty-four, I am hoping I can be a faithful sponsor to a fifty-plus year old woman.

In Christ,
Jordan
Current Mood:
pensive pensive
Current Music:
Just Like You -Keyshia Cole
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